Iwakeupinthemorningthinkingabkutsomanythingsjusthopingthingswouldgetbetterbutnothingseemstobethesame

This is the TikTok that lives rent-free in my head daily. Seriously, I did wake up this morning thinking about so many things. For instance, I leave for Mexico next weekend and have no clothes, still need to get nails done, COVID tested. Just some running around I have to do. Not to mention I keep procrastinating getting groceries. 

I don’t know why I avoid things that aren’t even that hard. To me, it’s one of those things that I don’t want to mess up. I don’t even know how I could mess up putting in an  order but somehow someway I find a way to make an error. Whether that be putting it into the wrong store or forgetting the main ingredient. What I can say is that once groceries are in the house it is so much easier to not eat out. 

I am so proud of myself. I did not eat out at all last week. I found all my meals in the house. I was getting hella creative too. I surprised myself. This week however is a little bit different. I ate out the past two days and although the food was *chefs kiss* I spent more money than I would have liked on food. 

There are still days ahead for me to redeem myself. More than anything I want my body to get off of the grease and fast-food addiction. I wholeheartedly feel like I may be addicted to fast food which is such a fat thing to say. But yea, I want my body to only crave healthier options. 

I want today to be easy and peaceful. I want there to be no major life or work issues and I want to be able to sail through my work. I will have a good day me. 

Lol if you got this far thank you for sticking through my morning thoughts.