I have 10 minutes to spare before the day ends! This shouldn’t be too long, well hopefully! Well, how should I wrap up this great Monday? I have done something that I am not proud of but I was able to catch myself. Long story short I have to complete training for a new position I will be starting in the fall. Me trying to be proactive finished the first of the training at the beginning of the month and have been working on the videos. Well today I saw an email asking me how far along I am in the process and me being me I freaked. Literally freaked! I was scanning emails and reading them over and over. Opening the same checklist over and over trying to make sure everything got done. 

Guys, literally for 3 hours I was doing this, I wore myself out. Honestly, I had to physically get up and move away from my computer. 

A couple of hours later I started to reflect on why I got so worked up over this one email. Well, it was simple. I was doubting myself. I hate that I am still doing this!!! I want to work on this part of me, I am too smart and too experienced to be second-guessing myself. I know it’s not going to be something that will be a breeze to overcome but I feel lesser when I question myself and my decisions. Even when I know I don’t need to.

I think/know I second guess myself because for one I hate being wrong! I also really don’t like being corrected😅 which I am not proud of. One of my goals is to be more confident in my abilities and decisions. I know it is something that I can overcome but I also know realistically it is going to take time and patience. 

Ok, that was my Monday! Ttyl ❤