Remember to breathe, close your eyes, and know that you are going to be ok. It will be ok. They will be ok. Of course with time all things get better but you have to remember to remember that it takes time. I know you want everything to happen for you right away but you must remember that all things that are great are worth waiting for.

Believe me, there are so many things I wish and pray could happen right away. So that I didnt have to go through the trials and tribulations of getting there. Where ever there is. Somewhere great and fun. A place with no limits to my ability to be the person I want to become.

Now.. I have to figure out the person I want to become. I know exactly the person I dont want to be and that is what keeps me going. But life has to be about something more than just running away from who you don’t want to be.

I want to be a person that lives life without thinking about how it could all go so horribly wrong. To be able to see the good in people before the bad. To be the person I would want my future daughter to look up to or the person I would want to mentor me when I was a teenager/young adult.

Being an adult is literally one of the most confusing things I am having to navigate and for some reason I don’t think that it’s going to get easier. However, if it is not going to be easy, I have to make sure it’s going to be fun.