Learning

Practicing being opened minded is fundamentally improving my life. For me, I have to practice being opened minded because I can be very judgmental. Not in a bad way but at times it has gotten me some feedback. Which respect! (SN: I would rather someone be truthful to me and hurt my feelings rather than beating around the bush. I have learned that being direct is the best policy) Being opened minded isn’t something that comes to me naturally.

I was called out as a hater in high school and rightfully so. One day I was chatting with a gal pal when a classmate was brought into the discussion. I mentioned that I heard that she was a hoe & my gal pal asked how I knew. I told her, Im not sure I just heard it. Right then she looked at me and called me a hater. I wasn’t even mad. More just shocked that she called me out on it. So shout out to her for making me self aware.

Along with being opened minded. I have learned that following through for myself will only benefit me, and help me improve my overall self. Recently I have been showing up for myself and doing the things that I have planned for myself to do. I am also following through with new hobbies. The only downside to finding knew hobbies is trying to figure out how you can do all of them at once.

A part of following through is ensuring that boundaries are not modified or simply disregarded. More times than not I will bend my boundaries for the momentary euphoria, an explosion of wonderful feelings followed by days of recovery mentally and sometimes physically. I am finally getting the realization that I will feel more euphoria for showing up for myself.

I have been asking myself “what is love”. I know there are different types of loves that one could have. There is romantic love. The love you have for your family and friends. The love that is shared amongst a group of people. Love is a verb, something that you give and receive. When we are lacking in one area of love we pour into the other parts. For example, my romantic love life is currently at 0% but since I have other sections of love I can fill those spaces up where it is empty. Like a pie chart, that will remain a circle no matter the percentage of its components. This makes sense in my head.

Let’s keep learning and growing together!