The day was rather peaceful. Learning to be content with my own company is turning my life around. Everything has started to become easier. There were times when I would not feel right about being home on a Friday night. I left like I was missing out on life if I was not outside. Embarrassingly enough I would actually get sad that I was not out. Looking back it’s not a big deal but in the moment it truly felt like I was alone. From my perspective I was in the house with no friends or date which made me feel like I was unworthy of connection in some sense. Now that I have found comfort in my own company I enjoy the times when I get to only focus on myself. Being able to be relaxed in my home doing my hobbies and just breathing.

The hard truth is I had to endure those moments to be able to enjoy my current life. For a very long time I have prayed for peace. Not util I sat down and absorbed by environment did I realize that I have peace around and within me. I am overwhelmed with gratitude that I did not get the things I wanted because I know that there are big things coming for me. I am not too sure what those big things are but I am excited to see where this next chapter of my life takes me.

During this time I am making it a priority to take care of myself, my family and my friends. I want to make sure my community is strong.