Honestly, I hate the fact that I am having to vent about a guy. Perhaps vent is not the best word to use, but it is the only word that comes to mind.

I am in the leave it alone, move on and forget about it place and there is something that keeps pulling me back. My intuition is telling me its by anxious attachment style that is keeping me from moving on. It has been confirmed that a relationship is not in the picture any time soon and I do not like to play the whole “friend” game. That game never ends well for anyone, especially me. So, I have to make a clean break. I have deleted any pictures we had together. Bro, I even printed out pictures and had to rip those up. A complete disaster. The phone has been wiped as well as the apartment. There is no reason for this man to return. And I have no way on contacting him because the number has been deleted.

To move on, I will be looking inside of myself to better equip myself for the next time this situation pops up. I will get over my anxious attachment. That is a promise.

This “relationship” has taught me to move on. To make sure that I have a mindset of love being abundant. Staying somewhere I do not belong is not good for me. It really sends me to a bad place. By being selfish and learning myself more I can prevent a lot of heartache. I am ready to be completely moved on. This time next year I will be in a whole different and better relationship. I am happy for myself for walking away from something that I wanted to work really bad. What is meant for me will come to me easily.